Mar 16, 2012

Eye Doctor and Knit to-do list

So I went to the doctor when I first got my infection. I couldn't get my contacts out myself, so I went to a regular doctor in order to get them out. He prescribed anti-biotic eye drops. The next day, I went to my eye doctor, and he prescribed anti-inflammatory eye drops. I just had an "infection", but they never said a name for that infection. I had pus in my eyes. There may be permanent damage to my eyes, too. Pretty much, I think I got the infection long ago, but it didn't hurt that much. I would take out my contacts for a few days, then put them back in when it stopped hurting. So, it was still there, but the contacts were trapping it right around my cornea and iris, which is where all the damage is.

Contacts on a healthy eye is just fine. They don't do damage to your eye. If your eyes get irritated, take your contacts out. If you keep them, disinfect them with contact solution. But whatever you do, just take them out of your eyes ASAP. It doesn't matter where you are, or what you're doing. If you leave them in, you are escalating the problem.

Some people, like me, don't like taking their contacts out every night. I got the kind of contacts that you leave in for a month, then throw away and put new ones in. I never took them out and washed them. If you want contacts, you need to be more responsible than that. I wore them longer than a month, taking them out only when they started to get dry or itchy. Then I would instantly put new ones in.

I am out of contacts, so I will be very nearsighted for a couple of weeks. At least I can open my eyes and they don't burn anymore. I am getting new contacts, but I am going to figure out the best ones for me. Obviously, it isn't the kind that I leave in over a month.

On to knitting tutorials! This first one I really want to try, even though I can't really get purling. At least, I don't think I can.

$5 in Paris. Easy top down raglan sweater with optional side shaping noted in the tutorial. This is not the first picture I saw of this sweater, but I can't find the other one now. It had long sleeves and the neck was more of a scoop neck. It was also sort of an off the shoulder sweater, too. But I liked it that way. I'm pretty sure the girl had just knitted it too big, so that is what I am going to try.

Kitty "Hood Scarf" with pockets. This super simple tutorial can be changed to have different kinds of ears, like longer ones for a fox scoodie. (As I prefer to call them.) This project is simple enough that I am sure I could make it. (I'm not that good at knitting....)

Knitted Cat Hat. I have tried this one before. My needles were too big and I was too stupid to figure out that that would have quite an impact on the project. But I still want to try to make it right!

Knit Kitty Key chain. Anybody could do this one! (I like cats, okay?)

Double Nickles. I have also tried this one before. I just can't freakin' purl! I am going to try harder though. I have managed to follow ONE pattern so far. and make two scarfs. I have also managed to make two very different arm warmers. and failed at making a slipper, and a bikini top. Oh well?

Mar 14, 2012

More eye problems

Haven't been posting because I have a major infection in both my eyes - I couldn't get my contacts out myself so I had to wait until I could get to a doctor to do it, now I may have permanent damage to my eyes. Stupid eye doctor didn't call in my prescription so now I have to wait until they're open again to bitch about the fact that they have the prescription, THEY have to call it in, because we can't just go to the pharmacy and SAY a doctor said I could have this. Unbelievably painful. I hate people.

Mar 11, 2012

Hair Problems

So I've been trying to grow out my hair. It's about as long as it will ever be, because by this point the ends are so damaged I have to cut it short again. It ALMOST reaches the bottom of my shoulder blades. I would like to keep it this long, but at the same time, it is so thick and so heavy, that when I cut it my head will be about 10 pounds lighter. Not really, but it will definitely feel like it.

Luckily, I have a new friend who has been cutting her own hair for quite some time. She doesn't have a job and goes to school, but that has come apart because her family and boyfriend has scattered to several different places when their lease was up and they couldn't afford to stay around. I intend to give her some money, but the reason I'm asking her to do it is because I'm flat broke and don't have the money for a real hair dresser. Still, I want her to get the idea that she could start cutting friends hair for cheap for at least SOME money.

I am more curious about whether or not the damage is caused by going to the gym's swimming pool every monday, or the chlorine and the bleach from dying my hair combined is doing the damage. Either way, if I don't cut it soon I think it will get worse. Which is not what anyone wants.

Mar 8, 2012


Since I have all this yarn that I haven't used for actual knitting, I've decided I am going to use it up by making things to sell. I have had it all for so long the yarn is basically free.

My camera is, sadly, in my BF's car. The car that's in the shop for repairs that were intentionally caused by a complete bitch. So, I guess I am just going to have to wait until I get that back to start putting things up on Etsy. Blah. It will probably be at least a month. (Judging by how long it was in for repairs for the other two times someone ELSE caused damage to it.)

So far, I have made 2 pot holders, and most of a scarf. I really can't do patterns that well, but I think I've had a breakthrough on a problem that I had. I think I figured out how to move yarn from back to front in order to purl. So, maybe I can start something a BIT more advanced. Before I would end up wrapping the yarn around the project, and I did that all the damn time. I don't know how or why, it is so simple to do!

The pot holders are just squares with holes every four rows. They take me 3 hours to make. I have no idea how to price that. They aren't that special, so I don't want to charge more than $5 for them, but they took me 3 hours of knitting. Knit things are usually pretty expensive, anyways. Hmmmm... Maybe $7. Two for $10? I will have to ask my stepmoms mother.

The scarf is made from this really pretty yarn I got for free, it is mostly blue but has red, purple, lighter blue, and green mixed in it, peacock colors. It's going pretty fast, the yarn is thick and I'm using big needles. I have two big skeins of that yarn, I think I can make three scarfs from it. I think that type of yarn is the best to make scarfs with. But, what the hell do I know? I'm a beginner.

I'm trying to figure out how to make slippers with just straight needles, size 6 or size 13, since they are all I have. I want to make as much stuff as possible before I have to start buying more things. I am flat broke.

I am really upset about my camera. I need it!

Mar 7, 2012

Harassment - True Story

At around 9:00 or 10:00 one night, a man and a woman were stopped at a stoplight. They were in different lanes, although the woman apparently needs to get into the mans lane in order to get wherever she is headed to. She may plan to cut in front of the man when the light turns green, even though there is literally no one else around.

The light turns, and the man takes off, speeding up to the speed limit, but no faster. The woman decides he must be just acting like an asshole. Angrily, she starts speeding, and cuts him off right in front of a roundabout without using her blinker. She had cut it very close, for she nearly ran into the concrete sidewalk that separated the roundabout's lane and another lane.

She goes through the roundabout normally. Once she is out of the roundabout, she slams on her brakes, and keeps the brake depressed. Her brake lights stay on even though she has come to a complete stop. She is near a bank, but the entrance is far ahead. There is no reason to have come to complete stop where she is.

The man sees her brake lights, and starts to slow down. Too late, he realizes that she has actually stopped, and slams on his breaks. His skids into the back of the car the woman is driving, which is not even hers.

His hood crumples. The metal framing holding the radiator is bent, shoving the radiator into his engine. Fluid sprays everywhere; fiberglass and plastic flies more than 5 feet away. His front bumper falls off completely.

Before he slams back into his seat after the impact, the woman is out of her car, screaming at him. She calls the cops.

The man is in shock. When the cops come, they talk to him first. They believe he was simply following to closely behind. After talking to the woman, the come back to the man more sympathetically. She had said that she was slowing down for a person waiting to come out of the banks parking lot, 21 sidewalk squares ahead. Each square is about 3 feet, so the entrance/exit is roughly 63 feet ahead of the crash, perhaps more.

The story is unlikely, as she would have had the right of way if there had even been a person in the parking lot, and she was too far from the lot as it was too have started "slowing down".

She gets a ticket for negligent driving. He gets a ticket for tailgating her. He plans to fight his ticket. He was not driving too close to her. He just didn't realize she had stopped when he saw her brake lights.

I trust that the man, my boyfriend, is telling the truth.

That woman purposefully stopped in front of him, with her sisters (I believe) car. She intentionally caused damage to his car. Any woman who would do this, I would think badly of. I think even worse since she did this with someone's car that was entrusted to her. She has already screwed herself over with her story; I hope that her family understands what really happened and won't trust her with their car again.

You may think I have told a skewed story. I still want to know: Whose fault do you believe it was?

Mar 6, 2012


I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday... I got up early in order to get a ride to the community college, so I could finish my fafsa paperwork. What I didn't know is that spring quarter, AND summer quarter, are both part of the 2011-2012 school year. I guess it makes sense, since fall is when the rest of the lower schools start, but really, no one else knew either. I mean, they pay with their own money, so it wouldn't have mattered to them to know. When the lady at the financial aid desk told me, I didn't know what to do. I've registered for classes already, but now I won't be able to do my fafsa for LAST YEAR on time to pay for spring quarter.

I was so sure I was going to be in school this quarter. Now that I don't have even the slightest fucking chance, I have another 3 months of sitting around, trying to make things out of stuff I already have in order to sell them. In order to get the money to actually start making things.

I. Hate. School. In highschool, there was a mandatory class everyone had to take in order to graduate. The point of the class was to educate us on how to proceed to college, like keeping us up to date on when certain tests were, and BS like that. They told everyone to fill out their fafsa, even if their family made a ton of money, in order to get any money they could. Yet they didn't tell us, in fact they didn't even know, what to do once you've filled out the fafsa. Because the teachers aren't doing this stuff themselves, they've already been to college long ago.

I talked to a girl who has been using fafsa the entire time she's been in college and she didn't even realize that I needed to use last years fafsa. So now, I'm screwed over once again. I just don't know what to do.

Mar 1, 2012

Self-Injury Awareness Day

Today, March 1st, is Self-Injury Awareness day. I want to talk about this because I know that there are plenty of people out there who get angry and confrontational when they hear about a friend who cuts/burns/etc., and this is not a good reaction to self harm.

Self-Injury is NOT a suicide attempt or a way to get attention. A lot of people don't know why they do it. In fact, a lot of people don't even know that they DO it. People who look down on it, have probably done it themselves, and will do it again without even knowing, because it is a coping mechanism. Self harm does not have to be cutting or burning. Maybe you are in an abusive relationship. To cope with emotions you feel you can't express, you stay in it. You let yourself stay in a situation where you are physically hurt. You think that you are too scared to say that you are leaving, but really, you might be scared of losing the pain that you use as an outlet.

I speak from personal experience. I used to cut myself. Later, I would rub dirt and dust into my cuts. I have stopped since, and have talked to friends and family, but when I did cut, kids at school would laugh about it. They would yell about it. They would encourage me, or they would JOIN me, or they would get angry and tell me I was being selfish. Selfish! What is selfish about trying to cope with emotions you don't understand or are afraid of?

I had a friend who was a good christian, and was very against self-harm. Then she started to do it. She would scratch the top of her hand. Everybody thought she was just trying to get attention or be cool, after all, she started after seeing other people do it. I didn't say anything about it. I didn't understand at the time what I was even going through, and I knew that I didn't need to attack her about what she was going through.

I once found a couple of dirty, rusted box cutter blades out in the street. I took them home and put them in my windowsill. A friend of mine asked to borrow them. I cautioned against them, but didn't stop him. Two weeks later he returned them, but that time I felt bad. I didn't want to provide weapons that could seriously kill my friends. I threw them away after that. That time I wondered if he was trying to commit suicide. He knew the potential of those rusted blades. You don't always know if self-injury isn't a suicide attempt, but I don't think he would have known it himself.

Please read more about self-harm here, and try to help those you may know that hurt themselves. Don't knock them. You might have done it yourself.